Christmas Eve

Do you remember your favorite Christmas?
Was there a year, or a gift that stood out among the rest?
I can’t say that I have one. 
I will say that every Christmas Eve, I remember what I feel.
I feel incomprehensible joy,
unparalleled peace,
and no matter what happened during the year, 
I feel wrapped in the gift of love.
My family has always done an impeccable job of driving me crazy,
but they did an even better job of assuring me I was loved.
Every Christmas season, when the time comes to celebrate the birth of Christ, 
I am thrilled to spend time with family.
Though there is pain there is joy.
Though we experience arguing we also experience peace.
Though we experience making mistakes we experience forgiveness.
Family is the first place where I learned about love.
Where I learned grace .
What it is to love no matter what.
Whether your brothers ruin your Barbie tapes
or whether you’re calling your brothers mean names
or whether you have to make amends with your mom for the hundredth time
 because your attitude is out of control.
And to always be met with love
To always be held.
Amidst the noise and chaos in this world,
where darkness, despair, and hopeless come ruthlessly after you
there is a place,
there is a people
where we are first introduced to being wanted
where we are first afforded the luxury to be ambassadors of
peace, strength,love, hope, unity, and joy.
Each year when Christmas rolls around I think about family
My utterly flawed & utterly fabulous family.
How the hardships and miracles refined us, and brought us together.
I think about His family.
How God used the utterly flawed and utterly fabulous,
in the very lineage of Christ.
I wonder how baby Jesus felt that night so many years ago,
 that first night in that cave in Bethlehem, 
Incomprehensible joy? Unparalleled peace?
Mary was most definitely in pain,
and I can only imagine Joseph was stressing out!
But oh the love
to be wrapped in love.
Once the chaos stilled, and the Savior was born, and they all took a deep breath,
and they cried tears of joy,
the Savior was born!
As they wrapped themselves in each-others arms
and held the Savior
who holds us 
and stills us
and laughs with us
and wraps us in His loving arms,
they became family.
Cheers to the gift of Jesus & the brilliant gift of family.
Go do yourself and wrap a family member in your arms today and say
” I know I probably drive you crazy, 
but more than anything 
I hope you remember this embrace
on the suckiest and best of days
rest assured I LOVE YOU. “


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